Bonding Forever …..

Dear Son or Daughter,

I apologize for not knowing how to introduce this letter but I am extremely delighted to let you know that this is the first token of love to you and your mum from me. I'm writing this to you when you are inside your mamma's womb. You do exist in this world, but we have just met you in sonography. I haven't shared these thoughts with anyone yet, and I wanted to tell you first. Not even your mother knows that I'm writing this, so lets keep this between you and me for now, okay?
You know when first time we got to know that you are there in this world... it was such an amazing feeling for me !!! When I saw that pregnancy test strip changing its color, I was in tears. That was the feeling I will never ever forget… similar to the feeling which I got when I stood first in my class and made my father proud, feeling which I got when I had my first salary cheque, feeling which I got when I first kissed.
I had my first complete interaction with you when we went to Doctor for Level-2 ultrasound. That was the moment when I had a thought how much cute and sweet a baby (to be born) could be. Your mom and me were very excited at each of your moments inside. Doctor asked your mama to take a turn on a side and you also took a turn immediately inside your beautiful world (I hope it would be). But the scene on ultrasound machine turned my eyes broken into tears when I saw your cute lill’ hands on the screen doing finger movements (opening and closing your lill’ grip). The doctor pointed towards your heartbeat, nose, spinal cord, eyes, feet and head.
It’s been a long journey of 6 months since then… you are gaining length and weight every single day. Yesterday, I was on seventh heaven when Doctor while touching your mom's tummy said that your baby is very active... I was overwhelmed, excited, joyful, proud to know that ur doing enough of moments inside.
You see, I feel you kick and hiccup while you grow inside your mother's womb. Mostly your mother makes me feel your moments by keeping my hand on her tummy even when I am fast asleep. I feel very much excited to have a feel of your existence from this outside world. I don’t want to hide this fact also that sometimes your momy also have sleepless nights too due to muscular pains and cramps which are preparing her to deliver you. We are extremely excited to have you in our hands and life.
Now, I want to hold you just after you are born and feel my life change. I want to look at you and see that you have my intelligence and brain & her eyes and nose. I want to help you learn to crawl, to walk, to ride a bike, to drive a car. I want to punish you when you do something wrong and reward you when you do something right. I want to watch you grow up faster than I thought to be possible. And yes, I want to worry constantly about your safety, and I want to be the one to provide that for you as long as you'll let me. I want everything that comes with the privilege of being your father, whatever that might be.

Yours loving,
Dad

My New Phase of Life ...

How the time flies and life goes on, nobody can anticipate. What is going to be next in life is always a question of curiosity. Exactly same happened with us. I have entered into a very sweet and anxious phase of life which is known as turning stone in a woman’s life and which completes womanhood called “PREGNANCY”.

Yes Fellas, this is the word, which is going to make my small world complete soon. This is the feeling that has crossed all the boundaries of my care, love, dedication, and anxiety for myself. I have found an entirely different atmosphere surrounding me which makes me blossom with love and care for me and my ‘ANSH’ (part of body). I would like to mention that it has been possible for me to stay healthy and determined for this decision only because of none other than my sweetheart – ASHOK (janu).

I remember that day, when I came to know that I have conceived, was the celebration day for my close-knit family & me. My hubby treated me very special with a Black Forest cake cutting ceremony at our home. I was feeling on the top of the world. But deep inside my heart, I was afraid of carrying this responsibility as I conceived in 3rd month of our marriage. Very strange and horrible thoughts were coming to my mind for this baby in my womb. But a ton of thanks of my loving partner who has given me courage and strength to get associated with this baby.
I have also made myself strong for this decision. Then started the sequence of hormonal changes, mood swings, loss of appetite, nausea etc. in the first trimester of this phase. Believe me friends I was totally opposite what I am in original. Thoughts of loneliness, anger, frustration and impatience were getting on my nerves. I used to have at least 6-7 vomiting in a day---thanks to hormonal changes. These behavioral changes created a lot of misunderstandings in my life as I was not able to express my love, care and required time to my family. Always felt sleepy and tired all day and night. I must say those days were the worst days of my life. But again thanks to my destiny that has given me such an understanding partner who understood the issues and resolved it on time.

Then fun loving and nice moments of life started in 2nd trimester of my pregnancy. This is the phase where I have actually enjoyed and lived with my partner. Going for latest movies, eating out (especially golgappa, chaat, dosa, brownie, and chhane bhature….hmmm yummy), spending evenings with friends with gala wine and dinners, shopping etc. had become a part of this phase. I am feeling awesome, great, special and most important associated with my baby in my womb. These days I try to talk to my baby in my womb and let him know how much his mama loves him. I simply can’t forget the touch and kiss of my hubby on my pregnant tummy that always make me feel that you are the one who is completing my world and bringing our family to the next generation.

Friends, I am still in 2nd trimester of my pregnancy and soon going to enter in my 3rd trimester phase, which is the last stage of pregnancy. And most important I am gonna celebrate my next birthday and 1st marriage anniversary with my lil’ one who will open his eyes in this world in the month of April.
Wish me best of luck so that I can deliver this ANSH of Ashokajal safely and healthy on this planet.
Happy Reading…..!!!!!